9/8/04

Mass Confusion, but Still Okay

So I have mass confusion as to what is going on between myself and my new "friend" (the guy I just parted ways with recently). I'm getting the same type of attention I did when we first started dating. Its like we never even had a fight. The shit is weird frankly. I rely on my ability to not call him unless i'm returning a purposely missed call of his. I can't for the life of me figure out why he would want to break things off with me, only to call me constantly to talk and hang out. I can say that it feels good though. However, I am not relying on his calling me to be the major force in me getting over him. For all I know he could stop calling out of the blue, then where would I be? In other news I started grad school yesterday. I don't really know why i'm there, i'll just stroll through hopefully all the way till' my July graduation . My roommate moved in and she seems really cool. Not cool like the last freaky friday one, honestly cool. We can share stuff without counting the grams we used, walk in each others rooms, use each others things, go out together. It looks like it'll work out. I also have 2 auditions coming up next week. So I have plenty of keep busy work, i'm just hoping it not only occupies my time, but my heart and mind as well.