9/3/03

So I went on an audition for a film, with an open mind of course, and by open mind I mean having the realization that I could get the part, or very well not get it. So the producer loves my audition, and gives me the script to take home. I take home the script and read it from front to back, still having my "open mind". Today the producer e-mails me saying he gave the role to another lady, but he was so impressed with my audition that he wrote another role for me. He raved on and on about my work, and said that he thought the new role would be perfect. So, I scrolled down to read some of the new role, and it's the role of a model. The scenes that I would be in are at a photo shoot. Why do I always have to be the "model" type? I'm not saying I'm this fine ass broad and all, but everywhere I go, people are always trying to pigeonhole me into that role. I know some of you are reading this thinking, "I can't believe she is complaining about getting compliments on her looks", but that's not the way I want to be perceived. That's not my goal...to be considered pretty. I couldn't care less about an issue. I purposely went to the audition looking plain as possible, no make-up, hair down, regular ass chick. So now I contemplate taking the role not because I'm not appreciative, but because I'm not looking forward to being that "pretty girl". I know I'm smart (I graduated in the top 10% of my class, got honors in the major, and graduated with a 3.7), but this never comes off. Ay, dios mios!