9/27/04

2 "un-official" dates with my ideal man, and a pound of procrastination later...

So I've been having these "friendly" meetings with my ideal man, and they only leave me even more confused about us, than I am about bi-sexuality (which btw I think is just plain gay). I can't be thisclose to someone I just ended things with. I can't look at them as though we've never been anything more than friends. I can't get everything about him out of my mind. All this thinking about him is driving me to procrastinate in completing my school assignments. I've never in all my life been a lollygagger. I like to get my work done in a timely manner. Because of all the memory that this issue is taking up on my hard drive, I can't really take on a whole lot of other things right now. I need to delete him from my thoughts, and make room for other things. It's difficult to do so with the "friendship" that we're building. We're closer now than when we were dating.