7/25/04

mental reprieve

Why is it so hard to stop your own mind from having certain thoughts? I am so trying to get over him. I think I've made some progress although i still can't completely go a day without a thought of him. What ever happened to the old ways of courtship? You go out on a few dates, you're gf & bf, you make a decision about whether or not you want to be married, then you either do marry, or move on. I'm not saying I want to be married, i'm saying i'd like clarification. I'm actually nervous to have him come back, i'm afraid of what he'll tell me about his dalliances with his last ex gf. I am really, really, busy right now. I have 2 jobs, i'm trying to register for my first year of grad school, i'm still trying to obtain my career...however, because I am a "type a "personality, i'm used to taking on everything all at the same time. so no matter what, i'll always be able to make time for the things that I want, no matter how busy i already am. I need a mental reprieve.