7/24/04

It Only Gets Harder

I can't stop thinking about whether or not he'll cheat on me with his ex while at home. I'm not panicky about it like I was when I found out, I'm just still having random thoughts. I would like nothing better than for him to come back and tell me that he knows that he wants to be with only me, and that missed me immensely. But, I can't allow myself to float by on false optimism. My stomach is troubling me again, i'm beginning to think its stress related. I can't keep much food down, and my tummy sounds like a stirring volcano. I'm now officially a Pepperdine Wave. I have my e-mail address, and registration appointment. I have full faith in my ability to be able to graduate next July (hopefully with Honors again), with my M.A. Education. I love learning new things so this should be some fun for me. I only hope that i don't run into some angry professor who feels like they have something to prove by making me suffer, cause those situations always turn into bad grades for me. I wish there was a potion I could to erase him from my mind. And people say it doesn't pay to be mean.....it does, cause when you're nice to people they take advantage of you.