7/17/05

Not Enough Sex?

If i'm not willing to sleep with someone just because i'm physically attracted to them, and we've been out a couple of times, does that make me uptight? I've recently come to the conclusion that I am definitely more like Charlotte on SATC than anyone I know. It's not even on purpose, its just an innate response to male attention. I meet a guy and if I like him sure I think about the possibility of us being intimate, but its not a guarantee. Apparently everyone else in the free world is getting their freak on with much less thought than what I put into it. The problem is I do think it pushes men away. Men are walking egos, and it's hard for them to believe that a woman not wanting to be with them when they want it, is not truly "about them". I'm in such a pickle... I've had little high-school relationships, and 1 relationship outside of that (btw it was a completely abnormal, abusive relationship), and i've only actually dated 2 guys (all within the past year), so I guess I lack experience. I'm beginning to think this will be one of those "if you can't beat 'em join 'em" issues but, I will never compromise what I believe in. I'm thinking maybe I can exercise a little bit of flexibility in my stance, just not to the point where i'm feeling guilty or dirty about my sexual choices. I know I may sound like i'm suffering from a sickening dose of too many after-school specials but, there is a lot more to sex than people make of it.