7/13/04

Bedwritten

So I've been experiencing excruciating pelvic pain for the past few days. I'm having a terrible endometriosis flare-up, and there's nothing that can be done for it. It feels like my uterus is excavating my entire womb of all its contents. I can't afford laproscopic surgery to alleviate the pain for a while. I certainly can't, won't, have a baby anytime ever. I called UCLA ob-gyn clinic, and they said they would look into accepting me for surgery on a cash monthly payment plan. Fucked-up thing is I also now need a retainer, and have an appt. for that next week. I'm medically fucked altogether. On an even darker note, i've decided to cut loose the ties that bind me to my asshole off a "friend". I can no longer put up with his shit, I've already been much to kind and forgiving, and I think it's given him an excuse to be a big-headed, inconsiderate, selfish, un-deserving jerk off. I now have crossed yet another country of men off my list: Ireland