5/8/05

Hungryman's Disease

So it seems as though I can't stop eating. I went to the doc a couple of weeks ago, and she presumed (yet again) from my symptoms that I was hypoglycemic, and probably pre-diabetic because of the severity of my symptoms. However, its difficult for me to take the blood sugar test because you're not allowed to eat 12 hours before the test. I don't think I can make it 12 hours without eating, especially when my doctor is like 45 minutes away and they never see people on time. I would literally be to weak to drive down there and wait. Today alone I ate 5 times (varied size meals), and I'm still hungry but I don't have much to eat here. Here's how it goes.... I wake up i'm starving, I eat. 2 hours later i feel empty and weak i eat again, and the next 2 hours and on and on until i literally fall asleep. Right now its 11:30 i last ate at 8:30 , i'm weak, can't focus, shaking a little, and i feel like i haven't ate all day. i've been peeing all day too. i've even taken to eating these big kashi go lean bars they have 25% of your daily fiber and 20% of your daily protein, but i'm only full for a second (they make me regular). I have this feeling that I will be diabetic one day, and it will kill my spirit. I can't imagine having to manage pricking myself and shooting myself up with drugs everyday. its like my thing with sticks...I can physically drive a stick, but mentally its too much for me to do; I think. My mouth is salivating now (sign of weakness) must go eat yet again... (and i've already brushed my teeth for the night, damn it!)