12/26/04

I Wonder...

As far back as I can remember into my young- adulthood, I have always been unlucky in love; always. I've never been with anyone on New Year's, my Birthday, Valentines Day, Christmas, or for that matter Columbus day either! I've only had a few actual boyfriends my entire life (let's just say I can count them on one hand, and still have fingers remaining). I've never, ever, had a guy buy me a gift for any reason whatsoever. I'm now 23 years old, and I'm wondering if I will ever have a real relationship? Will there ever be a man that wants to dote on me? Will I ever be in a relationship around a holiday? Over the years I have even modified my "prototype", to allow for men of other races, artistic life goals, and lack of a college education. I still haven't met anyone, not a single soul. I really don't want to be in my thirties, doing the dating "musical chairs" game, where I go out on dates and more dates, and try to score a good seat on a decent man's lap. To say that i'm having a slump, would be an understatement. If you really want a piece of sizzling info listen to this..... I've managed to have sex 1 time each year, for the past 3 years. So now some of you are probably thinking this entry was prompted by my hormones, but oh contrare. If I wanted to have sex, I could easily pick up a guy while i'm out, i'm just not interested in those type of encounters in the least bit. All I can do is sigh when I think about the lonesomeness 2005 could possibly have in store for me.