12/10/04

Finally

So tonight I finally let everything i've been holding in about asshole out on him. I launched a very thorough verbal assault on him. Don't worry, he earned every single word of it. I was so sick of him acting dumb, and me turning the other cheek, and giving him the benefit of the doubt, and me making up excuses for his behavior. I told him just how sorry I think he is, about his cowardly ways, his neglect, his stupidity, his lack of being a good person. At first I just talked to him how I normally talk to him, but after looking at his dumb ass face I got angrier, and angrier. I finally cursed him the fuck out, and told him how much I actually hate him. I told him how I wish I'd never met him, how my life would have been better off minus him. Honestly at first I felt a little bad, then I thought about all the times I felt bad because of something he'd done, and I kept going. Honestly he was staring at me as though he'd seen a ghost. His eyes were glistening too (no bullshit). I know I must sound like a terrible person, but you have no idea what this guy has put me through this last year, almost all of 2004!!!! After 2 hours of this I finally got cold and thirsty, and decided to leave. He says he'll call tomorrow to finish receiving his verbal ass-whooping (he was at work when I went off on him), that which I don't actually believe (even though he swore to God), but that's cool. I said everything I ever wanted to say tonight, and tomorrow was just another day for me to bring his esteem down another notch.