10/10/03

Have I mentioned lately how much I hate this state, and its un-educated, passe', fake, no-fashion sense having, anorexic, passive-racist, politically- dumbfounded residents? I'm beginning to loathe everyone I come in contact with, men and women. Traveling recently has only reminded me of all the things that this stolen piece of land we call California lacks as a state. Every morning I wake up dreading the day which I am going to face... a day where I will see hardly anyone who looks like me, a day where idiots who are legally blind will almost run me off the road, a day where if I decide to step outside for a breath of fresh air, I'd have to catch the next plane out of here. This place makes me hate my life. I don't even have the slightest desire to want to look attractive - ever. I feel like there is no one here who is on the same page as me. Everyone here has their heads full of cotton candy. No one here seems as if they have real issues, responsibilities, or concerns. Even people who are older than me (which is everyone), have their heads up their asses. Sometimes I just want to yell "Hey, the rest of the world gets that we only get to live this life once, and what we do with it really does matter, so we should have some dignity, and moderation with all that we do!!!!" Shit.....I fucking hate it here :(